Girl…you snow craaazzzyyyyy

Ok, so round 327 of being iced in this year has gotten to my brain so much that I’m turning my titles into plays of other phrases.  Which, happen to be pretty funny to me, but I doubt you all reading this are on the floor laughing.

In being trapped inside for what feels like the 898th day (even though it has really only totaled about 13 thus far I think), I forced myself to get a lot of randomness out of my head.  I promised myself I would not be lazy and give in to the temptation to nap in between conference calls.  I promised to apply a lot of check marks of completion to my ridiculously long to do list.  And, I promised to not ignore my random thoughts today.  I firmly believe these “snow days” are a divine conspiracy to make me slow down.  So, today I decided to embrace it.  After a random call with a friend to get some things off my chest and attempt to do it in a humorous manner, she noted “girl you are so crazy, the things that come out of your mouth”……no….I am “snow” crazy……and I am “snow” sick of this weather.  Ok, I’ll stop.  Here are some things that are “snow” random in my head these days J (sorry, just HAD to do it one more time)

Boys:  late last week a guy emailed me on a dating site I’m on to say hello in the form of a poem.  When I checked out his profile, I found that he apparently had a vision from God that lead him to this dating site and to put at least 4 pages worth of info about himself in the “About Me” section.  Maybe it was a little mean, but out of sheer boredom, I replied and asked that based on what he said in his profile and the fact that he reached out to me did that mean “I was the one”.  He quickly replied “yes, you are”.  Wow.  Could this be it?  His next message informed me that his vision from God was very clear of me lying on a bed, in my pajamas with my shoes off (which leaves me wondering who lays in bed with their shoes on in their pjs), smiling at him.  He was very clear that it was me.  Hmmm…really?  No thank you.  Don’t you think that if God himself so clearly laid out “the one” for you, that he might also inform that person in some way as well.  Maybe the postcard is delayed, but I haven’t had any indication that he was the one for me.  In addition to that, if you knew for sure it was me…….then why did you need to make such an in depth profile for everyone to read.  Wouldn’t you just make a general profile and save all the juicy details about yourself for our private convo?  That’s just my take.  I have not heard from him since that last email so I’m guessing he had another vision that counted me out of the running.

 Oscars:  I missed the red carpet and the whole show for the most part because I was watching Dallas Buyer’s Club.  However, my observations of what I did see are that the women looked beautiful, the men looked handsome and the speeches were great.  The one thing I noticed (and noted in yesterdays blog) is that everyone that wins is in such a rush to thank everyone and make it through their incredibly long list of names before they are rushed off stage.  What is wrong with assuming that someday you will definitely win an award and just starting to thank those who you feel “made the list” now?  So, I am randomly going to start thanking people so that when I get my big award, I can use the time to breathe, be grateful and say something absolutely epic that sparks as many articles/updates/shares as Matthew M saying “I thank God”.  And…I’ll save that topic for another blog someday : )  Today I would thank my church camp leader Terry Gregory.  She grabbed me at one of our camps and said “some day you are going to be a great leader”.  That was the first time in my life I can remember anyone thinking or believing anything like that about me and speaking it out loud to me.  I’m not sure I have accomplished it yet, but I think of that moment almost every single day.

 Detox:  Accckkk!!!  Today was the first day of a trainer guided 21 day detox program.  The problem?  Well, there are a few.

  1. I am a procrastinator.  So, did I, knowing the weather was going to be bad on Sunday, make my grocery list and shop early so that I could prepare the meals I needed?  Nope.  Of course I didn’t.  Thankfully I did get some fruits and veggies so I can make it on those til I have a clear weather day to shop.
  2. Also, in my procrastination, I did not do an inventory of what I had and get rid of the “bad stuff” that is in the house.  For example, Ben & Jerry’s Pistachio ice cream.  Full pint.  Just sitting there whispering “eat me, it’s ok, you’re trapped inside”.  It should also be mentioned that I bought my team at work a whole box of Butterfinger Cups (THE BEST NEW CANDY EVER) and planned on delivering it to them to eat today.  Since our office was closed, they sit on my table begging for my attention.
  3. I am guilty of being an emotional eater.  It seems like when someone like me puts myself in a situation like this, the first few days, all I think about is flippin food.  But I know that this is what is best for me and I am SO EXCITED about some great things that I know are going to happen for me this year.  I want to be as prepared for those as possible and be of clear mind and body : )
  4. I am a horrible cook.

 Exercise:  I signed up for a “women can run” clinic that starts this week.  I have no idea why I am so obsessed with becoming a runner.  I hate it while I’m doing it.  I can’t imagine what I must look like moving “all this” at a pace faster than a brisk walk.  But, it’s new, and that’s another promise I made for 2014.  I must try something that makes me uncomfortable and no matter how bad I hate it, I must complete it.  It’s a 10 week course with a “graduation” run at a 5k event for this group (Women Run).  If I am actually able to still breathe when this time comes, I have decided to run in a graduation cap and gown! Glittered support signs welcome.

As I sit here looking out the window at the BRIGHT blue sky and untouched snow, I just find peace.  My mind is busy with lots of noise but my heart is full.  My hope is that even though this blog basically has zero point (other than to fulfill the promise to myself to write every day for 30 days), that you feel inspired to sit down for a few minutes and let your random, “snow crazy” side out! : )

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Broken baby maker……

Sometimes I have so much running through my head that I get overwhelmed with where to even start to blog it all 🙂  So I just don’t.  And before I know it, a few months has passed since my last post.  THEN, I come across someone else’s blog that makes me wonder if they have been secretly camping out in my head and recording my thoughts for me.

That was the case when I came across this jewel of a blog (see link below to read for yourself).  🙂  It’s a great read.  Not only for anyone who might struggle with this issue but also for those who watch others struggle and aren’t sure how to look at the situation.  She says exactly what I think about it 🙂

I literally just had this convo with a coworker earlier yesterday about my struggles when I hear the mistreatment of a child and would give anything to have one……but….I literally hope and pray daily that I will never have to stand before God and ask him “why not me”….because my hope is that I see the purpose in not being able to have children and fulfill that purpose that was intended for me thus completely voiding the need for him to explain himself to me 
So, I get up daily, seeking that purpose….and loving on any kid that comes my way. Maybe that’s all I’m supposed to do. Maybe I am supposed to love on so many that having one of my own would’ve distracted me from that  Isaiah 55:12

Thank you Natasha for sharing your spirit with us!!!  Click here to read!

P.S.  Look at all these ca-uuuuuutttteee kids I already get to love on any time I want!!! 🙂  Who wouldn’t be happy with that??

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Dungeons and Douchebags series intro

Dungeons and Douchebags……Online Dating Pictures and their issues.

Even if you don’t date online, read it and share it…..people need to know 🙂

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Breaking up the holidays

How my break up effected my Holidays…..and other Holiday ramblings……
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Christmas thoughts…..

Christmas really is a wonderful time of the year isn’t it?  Who doesn’t love snow, Christmas decor, presents etc.  But there are a few things that swirl around in my head during this season that i thought I would share with planet earth.

Christmas lights….all or nothing.  Either rival the Griswalds or don’t do anything at all.  I have passed several houses with one strip of lights.  I don’t get it and I am sorry that you even spent time doing it.  Christmas lights are as exciting as fireworks and nobody gets excited over one firecracker that barely blows up 🙂

Dieting during the holidays – I am fairly certain it is easier to pass a bill in congress than to stay 100% to your healthy lifestyle during the holidays.  I admire those who can do it.  I just wish I was better at it.  But when your 90 year old granny makes a pecan pie and looks at you with those precious eyes and says “aren’t you going to have a piece of pie”…I, for one, am not going to be the person who says no to her and risk hurting her feelings…….would you? 🙂  My goal this year is to just keep moving during the holidays versus crashing on the couch after gorging myself.  Moderation and movement, that’s my theme.  I’ll keep you posted on how it goes but if Oreo balls come into play, I cannot make any promises.

To this day, our family opens present in age order.  And even as an adult, I secretly am screaming at all those going before me to “hurry up” so I can tear into my gifts 🙂  The struggle is real.

I LOVE this Elf on the Shelf business.  I would gladly steal a kid during this season to be able to partake in Elf on the Shelf.

I don’t know about your family but my Christmas rule is that I take home “x” amount of liquor to visit and when that runs out, I’m coming home.  🙂  I love my family.  I love them even more when we are all cramped into a tiny space eating, laughing and I’ve had a few 🙂

I used to look forward to Christmas for epic gifts.  Now I mostly look forward to it in hopes that my nieces think I got them the best gift and they remember me for years to come and the fun times we had.

Black Friday is of the devil.  I don’t get it, I refuse to participate most of the time and if I do participate it is in the company of fun friends and solely to laugh at the chaos of the moment.  I took advantage of the Michael Kors outlet sale in 2012, and that is the only time I have ever thought black friday was worth it 🙂

I am dying to send out a Christmas card even though I’m single.  I have been too chicken in the past but have decided that in the future I am just doing it anyway!  One of my fav things to kick off the holiday season is to gather my favorite little people (the nieces) and dress them up for family pictures.  It’s complete chaos, they rarely cooperate, and I wonder when we are done if there is going to be one single pic that turns out.  But, they always do.  It always ends up being a blast and this year was the best yet!!  (see shamelessly shared pics from the session below)

What are your holiday quirks or traditions?

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Cleaning out my head…..

When you have so much to say that you cant make a status out of it…..or you could but people would hate you for taking up their whole scroll screen….you blog.  Even though this whole revolution has been on hiatus….and the revolution itself is supposed to be aw inspiring us to be better women…….sometimes you just need to have a random chat with your girlfriends out there!  You know, like a pulse check just to see if the crazy randomness running around in your head is going on with anyone else.  so….here we go……

  • I feel like i should buy a honda just to help Michael Bolton out.  These commercials of him standing on a Honda singing in a plaid scarf are wearing me out.  It just makes me sad for him.  How did we go to the greatness of “How can we be lovers if we can’t be friends” to this?
  • Stop with the neon colored wrapping paper. That is not what christmas presents should be wrapped in.  I am trying to be ok with trees of crazy colors and decor, but nobody should go all “Lisa Frank” with the wrapping paper.
  • Recently I went with a group of girls to get a massage.  There were 4 of us.  Three of them got girls for their appts…..I got a guy.  But not just any guy.  Oh no…..I got the blind guy.  After helping him to our room, he advises me to put my shoes at the end of the bed and lay face down and he will be back in shortly.  I put my shoes at the end of the bed, but apparently it was the wrong end causing him to stumble.  As if we weren’t off to a bad enough start, I also laid face up and when he thought he was starting my massage on my back…..we both quickly realized I was in the wrong position.  Even more sad is that he apparently knew not because i was freaked out that he was touching my breasts, but because they aren’t as firm as my back he said.  Thank you for rubbing it in that my back is firmer than my newly saggy boobs.  After a very awkward 50 minutes, that craziness was over and I was reunited with my girlfriends who had a wonderful experience and were way more relaxed than myself.
  • Speaking of saggy boobs.  Out of all the aging that is going on in my body right now (wrinkles, gravity, smaller bladder, hot flashes, etc)…..the boob issue is by far the worse.  I’m not sure when my boobs went from firm to needing steel beams to hold them up but I am not a fan.  I used to not believe in plastic surgery but at this point, I’m not even sure where to start.  I know that I am definitely interested in a punch card program!
  • The new cowgirl show. That one that follows these girls around to rodeos while they ride horses in bikinis?…..yeah, no.  stop.  I am not kidding when I say if these reality shows get much more stupid, I’m gonna start doing all those things as a big girl and videoing it.  It’s not real.  Girls don’t ride horses with rock bodies in bikinis.
  • I really just wanna sit and talk to people. Whats a girl gotta do to get Barbara Walter’s position?  I have been caught up three times in the last week just coming across random people to talk to.  And they were all nice thankfully.  It makes my heart happy to hear people’s stories.
  • I recently got the pleasure of being the emcee at my company Christmas party’s gift exchange. I may or may not have used it to my advantage to say inappropriate things just to watch my boss squirm. Below are some quotes as captured by Miles.

“Thats classy. Steal from the bosses wife.”
“You have a choice. Alcohol. Meat. Gift cards. @adelmore not rocket science”
“Its Baileys. Put it in your coffee and call it a day. Whats the problem? @adelmore #mc #quote”
“I assure you that just because your husband picked the bag that said “ho ho ho” he meant nothing towards you Mary”

  • The more of these is see :)))))) The more i think of double chins. You arent smiling any bigger, you are just adding more chins

Well, do you feel as good as I do about getting all that out there? 🙂

Dress Rehearsal

Dress Rehearsal

Well HELLOOOOOO there! Long time no chat! I would love to declare that I’m back on to be so diligent in posting and such…..but, that would most likely be a false promise 🙂

To be honest, I have been struggling a lot lately. Not with anything major….but with just enough to make me think I shouldn’t be on here. And we all know that’s not true right? I mean, that’s the point of this….for us to all walk together. And if I’m not transparent even in my struggles with you, then I am robbing you of the chance to either learn from it with me, lift me up, or set me straight 🙂

Anywho! I chatted with the dearest friend today who so gently pointed out my need to control 🙂 She was such a great help, I thought everyone else needed to enjoy it too!

The honesty of my friend today when she said “you’re trying to have control. If we have control over the bad things, then we will see them coming and they won’t hurt so bad. Sadly that’s not true” was just what i needed. And her quote couldn’t have been more perfect! To add on to that, when you are always expecting the bad to happen (because that’s what’s happened in the past right) it’s all you start to see. And that, quite frankly, is beyond exhausting. Literally.
There was a time when my faith was at its strongest that I worried about nothing. The peace that kind of state brings is amazing. I can’t wait to get back there 🙂

Ponytail Summer

I have a confession.  I LOVE this messy hair up in  ponytails and buns business.  I just love it.  But I’m scared of it.  I have a round face, my nose is too short, and my chins…well…there are a few of them to choose from. 

This is the kind of self-attacking that happens every time I pull my hair back into a ponytail.  And it is time that it stops.  I have great hair (even if it’s thinning) and I love the look of a good ponytail.  So, today’s the day that I embrace that.  Today is the day that I decide to wear a ponytail because I like to and not just because it’s a good distraction from skipping a hair wash for the day!

I have become more and more aware (and more and more saddened) at how much self-attacking I do even in the little things.  And we all know that a lot of little things make bigger things.  Just think of the little comments you make to yourself throughout the day when you pass by a mirror or run into someone you think is cuter than you. 

Who would’ve ever thought that a little box of goodies that I received to try would lead to such discovery in my journey to loving myself and gaining confidence.  Who knew that a little ouchless elastic band would change my life for today?  I love the colors, I love how it fits my ponytail….and more importantly, I love the price compared to the ones I have found in boutiques.  It’s like Goody’s knew that I needed just this little band to change my whole perspective and get excited about ponytails! J

So, do it ladies (and gents if you’re so inclined)….embrace the ponytail.  Say “screw you fanned hair look around my face to seem thinner”……let the world see your face…..and the cute ouchless bands you choose to pull it back with!! 

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